I am pushed away by the people that I love the most .

Why ? . I don’t want no one to know that I'm vulnerable .

Why ?. cause if I answer , that makes me feel weak and so uncomfortable 

Why ?. stop asking me questions , I just wanna feel alive forget I cried , until 

I die , this isn't from my thoughts , and its a lie .

but right now am in disguise , am gonna write , sleep , listen to all of this slow 

songs are you one of a kind . 

I don’t listen to originals I prefer covers , have been doing this for most of my life ,

this is my best advice, take my chances but maybe this time I am going for a rest .

As for now am still afraid of heights but am going to put that aside concentrate

on the fear that I can impact.

I know I like to chat  in parables to always be one’s self , but my emotions 

make me feel like i'm someone else. " I ", peace and pride had made a pact

that we will never need no help .

Which feels like i'm at war inside myself, but I forgot the shells , I hold my emotions

Too close to the surface for all to see like show and tell . 

And a lot of people know me but not a lot of people know who I am deep down inside . 

 I hold my emotions , Too close to the surface for all to see like a show and tell . 

And a lot of people know me but not a lot of people know who I am deep down inside . 

I am flowing around feeling high but feeling so low inside,

Why ? . this is just me in my wonder world .

Why ? . You just asked me too many questions so let me go…